date:
Saturday, February 21, 2009
hello guys!:) hope you've all had a blast with CNY and VDAY!:)
i did:) kinda:)
and yes, i'm finally shifting to livejournal, after so long! been using blogger since my early sec days=/
so goodbye laggy slow blogger, and hello lj!:)
i hope (crosses fingers) with a new blog agent, i'll update mroe regularly!:)
here's the new link:
http://kaela-bella.livejournal.comps: anyone who's a whitz with templates, please help me out!:)
xoxo kaela '09!
kaela @
11:37:00 AM
date:
Monday, January 05, 2009
school's resuming in a couple of days!=(
ytd was my parent's 23rd anniversary, we had fish and co at the old jp, and shopped aound the new jp! it's HUGE!yay many more shopping days ahead:)
and yay the bf will be back tdy, after 3 long long weeks! and to think in the whole span of time, we only had 1 very brief phone call! and veryvery limited textes=/ hopefully we'll get to meet later:)
oh yup as for smoothie updates, i've just made a strawberry, papaya and banana milkshake! veryvery rich and yummy:) and healthy too!:) haha i want to be a smoothie connoisseur! went out grocery shopping tdy to buy more strawberries, blueberries, kiwi, juice and yoghurt:)
okays, off to do more packing! :)
kaela @
1:21:00 PM
date:
Thursday, January 01, 2009
happy 2009 to all!
so quickly another year has passed and we have all aged!
hmmm i'm thinking of switching to livejournal, will fix a day to move my blog:)
okays my new year's resolutions!
1) to love God wholeheartedly
2) to settle down in a church
3) to concentrate on my studies and do well
4) practise my piano well for the exams
5) pick up driving
6) work out at least once every 2 weeks (aim very low alr! haha!)
7) be a more dedicated tutor
8) to learn how to cheer people up
9) to spend more time understanding the bf
10) to spend more time with family and friends
11) to save more money
hmmm, i'll add more wheni can think of more~
counted doown(somesort) in this church near my new house.. well we didn'tcount! we were pray ing and the moment we 'amen'ed, it was the new year! haha
but they remind me of chc. very enthu people, want me to join their youth minsitry and be number 54! haha see how lah
i'm sleepy! oh yah on the sidethought, the first thing i ate this year was a mcflurry! haha! so unhealthy!
kaela @
1:41:00 AM
date:
Thursday, December 25, 2008
who loves TWILIGHT? *raises hand!*
i especially love BELLA'S SONG.
there are 2 versions of it, one for the movie, and one that was a potential piece called river flows in you, but both are beautiful!
the soulful melodies pull at my heartstrings, the piano chimes the music's meaning in a deep and purposeful manner.. brings tears to my eyes, music can be so, so , beautiful.
somewhere once, i heard this,
"you never give up on your music, ever."
i agree. without music, life would be so empty.
i'm gg to learn to play both versions:)
here are the links to both songs!
1) actual :
http://www.getalyric.com/listen/NNp0Tg4T43M/twilight_bella_s_lullaby_latest_sheet_music2) river flows in you version:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQME-ChSwNM&feature=relatedwhich do you think is nicer? haha personally i think the river flows in you version is nicer, but the actual one suit the theme of the movie better:)
if you want the mp3s or scoresheets leave a tag with your email add, i'll send you:)
loves:)
kaela @
11:49:00 PM
date:
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
"sometimes God breaks our spirit to save our soul, sometimes He breaks our heart to make us whole, sometimes he send us pain so we can be stronger, sometimes he sends us failure so we can be humble"
happy birthday Jesus, thanks for saving me 2008 years ago, though i dont really deserve it.
when my world was in darkness
You spoke Your work, night turned into day, Your beauty filled this place
when my world stood in silence
You filled my heart with songs that never end, forever i will praise
to think the universe could not withold Your glory,
You choose to live in me
i'm so amazed
and i, worship You, Lord
my life in You restored
here is my heart, make it Your sanctuary
for nobody else but Jesus only You
thanksgiving.
thank you Lord.
some days i just feel so depressed i dont know what i'm doing or holding on for.. sometimes i feel like throwing in the towel and just stop caring. sometimes i just want to shut myself in some deep hole or migrate to a foreign land to spend my life in nature and seclusion.
told a friend ytd: 'i'd rather be sing gle and envy sweet couples, then be attached but still envy sweet couples'
i dont know what's wrong, i dont know how to make things right. sometimes i feel like i can fight it out and jump the obstacle bars,sometimes i simply wonder if what i'm doing is the best way for us, or if i'm acting on a purely selfish instinct. yet to try to be maganimous and let go would seem weak and undertermined, and you'd say i' m not trying to solve the problem but rather, am running from it.
running's easier.
this holidays i've beemn working my ass off, but i've also been blessed with the good fortune of meeting up with friends i havent seen in ages. my jc friends at timbre, at sun and moon tdy, niger, wei xuan, gret, gary, jo, and of course my darlings qiu liy le eunice..
but here i am, spending christmas eve at my desk blogging, listening to the rain, alone.
i sound like some emo freak=/
sigh.. i'm just tired.. some alone time would be good..maybe i need a year of alone time.
in any case, tmr is Jesus' bday. for His sake, i'll end on a good note.
so i'll rmb, all those times You've brought me through
i'll be a fool to give up cause the goal is near
i'll move on, i'll hold on,
Lord i will take your hand and You will guide me along, weather the storm
so i say, come what may
i'll hold on to Your hope
and i will walk down this road, in hopes it will take me back home
kaela @
8:11:00 PM
date:
Thursday, December 18, 2008
'when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you, when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too, when you're gone the words i need to hear will always get me through the day, and make it okay, i miss you' :(
i have furniture!
very ugly wood furniture from scanteak! i'm not crazy ver it but it functions and looks sensible so oh wells, it has to be. but now, i can sit on a chair ewith a table to type this! instead of on the floor and propping the lappie on my bed or a carton! lols:)
been woking everyday like mad!:(
cause christmas timae and our shop is very shophanded!=/ but i've been learning alot of new things so very happy:) like opening,mid shift and closing~! and for the first timne, i'm actually holding the master key to the shop overnight! will be opening the store tmr!:) yays!:)
next week's christmas!
havent done xmas shopping cause i'bve been soso busy!!:(
oh wells, need to slp early!
kaela @
11:49:00 PM
date:
Monday, December 08, 2008
a most beautiful song i hear at work everyday!! from disney toy story sountrack!
When she loved me
Sarah mc lachlan
When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was i, when she loved me.
Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.
So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she'd say "i will always love you."
Lonely and forgotten, never thought she'd look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me
When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me.
kaela @
9:23:00 PM
date:
Thursday, November 27, 2008
i miss you my darlings!!
kaela @
11:42:00 PM
date:
Sunday, November 23, 2008
havent blogged in ages!!
yay i just got my internet back!!!
exams are over!!
much to celebrate:)
went timbre last friday with my jc friends! gosh i love that place:) ah will upload pics soon! lazylazy! haha!
been eatingalot, watching movies alot, shopping abit, working abit, tuitionting here and there, and oh, rolling alot on my new bed!! haha i love my new house now:) cause i got more space! except got to keep walng up and down lo=/ but nvm, can exercise and buirn calories!
oh yah
i've been transferred to plaza sing also! kinda miss suntec! but this transfer means i got direct bus, means i take abt half the time to get to work!! yay!!:) cause no need to take long long walk! but gret resigned alr:(
tdy made new friends there! people there very nice also! oh and there was a 25 pax party!! haha was kinda crazy!!=/
oh wells update again next time!
kaela @
10:52:00 PM
date:
Thursday, October 16, 2008
i feel like my mind's exploding. and my lungs.
been sick for about 3 days, it hurts everytime i sneeze and it bleeds and bleeds and the blood clots and then it bleeds again=/ and when i cough my lungs ache seemingly worse than a habitual smoker.
and i have to pack cartons upon cartons for the shifting. in tune to my mum's incessant nagging.
and i have exams coming up next week and i have no idea what i'm doing.
and i have to help with his O's and i feel bad i'm so ooccupied i can't spend enough time and energy, i do so want him to do well!
my students have not-so-fabulous results, i'm going to have to restructure the whole tutoring system. next year i will have 1 sec 2 boy, 2 sec 3 girls and 1 graduating O level girl. so much thinking and planning to do. i'm worried for them..
the customer is giving me a constant headache with her demands. as much as i try to please her, i can't..
i mailed out 2 packages to the wrong add and now i have to remail with registered postage.
i've been requested by 1 friend to help another apparently distressed friend, who happens to be my friend too, and i have no time to spare..
no dating time.
i have to source for certain materials in town or c town and i have no time.
i have no proper mailing add yet so i can't get parcels sent to me.
i will have no internet connection when i shift so i have no idea how i'm gna correspond with customers.
i will have many many banglas in my house for another week.
i will not have a bed to sleep in when i shift.
no more pool downstairs where i can swim so i'm vexed.
can't even take a last swim cause my menses just came.
i feel lonely.
i'm tired..
ok i'm done whining.
it's not that bad right?
ok time to get back to work.
kaela @
10:39:00 PM
date:
Sunday, October 12, 2008
shifting house depresses me..
i have no internet connection, no proper private space, 10 over banglas on my first floor and everything will be in a mess or in cartons. i hate it
and so rushed! tdy they announced that we have to move by sunday. wth. i havent packed A SINGLE THING.
and i'm about to have my exams soon.
andi have no idea where i'm gna hold my tuitions since the house will be filled with sounds of drilling and hammering.
stupid contractors, stupid tenants.
stupid irritating brother.
and he's not helping either. doesn't seem to be aware of how i feel.
i feel like punching someone.
kaela @
11:03:00 PM
date:
Monday, October 06, 2008
been busy with tuitions, like 6/7 hour stretches daily!! but their end of year are almost over alr:) havent started mugging at all!=/
yay adeline's wedding is coming! gret will be coming to stay tmr ! haha yay will be so much fun! cause all of us from babw are gg!!
hmmm apart from that, life has been pretty normal and dreary..
this is a really touching song.. reminds me of someone.. will i ever stop dreaming of you?
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
kaela @
11:21:00 PM
date:
Sunday, September 28, 2008
havent posted in awhile... been busy, with end of year's coming up, i'm up to my neck!
been catching a few movies though, step brothers, mamma mia, my best friend's girl...all not bad, lovelove mamma mia most!!
hmmm went out with gret today.. shopped alot, chatted alot, ate alot, cam whored alot!! went to town, ate at soup restaurant, shoppedshopped, looked for halloween outfits fruitlessly, hmm shopped at far east, and chilled at nydc:)
pondered abt some stuff also... sometimes i don't know if i'm doing the right thing, or if the right thing isn't so right after all... i don't want any more hurt, but i'm a selfish person who doesn't want to be alone either.. insecurity, indecisiveness, rashness.
okay pic s of today!
ugly faces!
haha we're not in a club or pub, we're at nydc heeren! haha!
in natural light
my lovely gretata!
retarded ffaces, i look evil here!
i like this pic:)
we could go on forever! lol!
but tired..
so went home! haha!
THE END. :)
kaela @
12:44:00 AM
date:
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
i guess some people never learn!! yes, that some being me!=/
haha here i am again, writing out a 1500 word essay in 2d1n! hmmm but i seem to be gettng better at spinning crap! it's geting easier to crap bullshit i don't even know anything about. haha if you were to seriously interrogate me and put me on a lie detector, i would turn up with a -50 IQ on that subject matter!
ah ok super rushing it out now, update again another day!
kaela @
11:58:00 PM
date:
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
i'm so in love with this song now.. the music is just so touching and beautiful... and a story close to the heart..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LGGBoFeWVLw&feature=related
傻瓜 Fool
词:温岚 Lyrics: Landy Wen 曲:吴克群 Music: Wu Ke Qun
Translation: mellly - www.jay-chou.net
其实他做的坏事我们都懂
We all know what bad things he has done
没有什么不同
Not much difference
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
Roaming eyes and ambiguous relationships
闭上眼当作听说
I close my eyes and pretend they're just hearsay
其实别人的招数我们都懂
We know too well the tricks of others
没有什么不同
Not much difference
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
Pretend to be weak and shy
只是有一点别扭
It's only a little unnatural
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
Fools are perhaps innocent
爱得没那么做作
Their love is not so pretentious
爱上了我不保留
When I have fallen in love, I won't hold back
傻瓜 我们都一样
Fools we are, all the same
被爱情伤了又伤
Hurt by love time after time
相信这个他不一样
Believing that this one will be different
却又再一次受伤
And yet we get hurt once again
傻瓜 我们都一样
Fools we are, all the same
受了伤却不投降
Hurt by love and yet never gave up
相信付出会有代价
Believing there will be a reward for our giving
代价只是一句傻瓜
And all it is, to be called a Fool
kaela @
8:36:00 PM